faith and perserverence

I journeyed to Houston to be a piece of the return home for Beth. Her home, the church rectory, is such a beautiful and peace-filled space. While I have seen photographs of Harvey flooding this space, it is hard for me to imagine 5′ feet of water inside and out.

What I see today instead–

I see restoration of this place.

Walking around the backyard and through the neighborhood, I see much evidence of God’s creation restored. Mimosa and Vitex trees in bloom.

I see resilience. Potato vine and water lily.

I see new birth. Fig and lemon trees.

I see perseverance. Avocado tree. Rose bush.

I also see a newcomer to the neighborhood – one not entirely welcome. Bamboo.

And I see faith.

On this new day I see hope and promise.

road trip day two

This afternoon we made the return trip to Camp Allen, as Beth had another class to teach tonight.

We gathered for the Service of Evening Prayer, and once again the prayers in this space echoed in my spirit.

I was struck by the variety of fences we passed as we drove the back roads to Camp Allen.

Excerpts from Evening Prayer:

That this evening may be holy, good, and peaceful….

That your holy angels may lead us in paths of peace and goodwill….

That we may be pardoned and forgiven for our sins and offenses….

That there may be peace to your church….

That we may depart this life in your faith and fear, and not be condemned before the great judgment seat of Christ….

That we may be bound together by your Holy Spirit in the communion of all your saints, entrusting one another and all our life to Christ….

We entrust you, O Lord.

We bless you for our creation,

preservation,

and all the blessings of this life;

for the means of grace,

and for the hope of glory. Amen.

road trip

I’m on a two-day road trip of sorts. An East Texas road trip.

I have traveled to Houston to “go back home again” to Beth’s restored home, and to help with some necessary tasks for settling back into the home. Also to share good worship with the people of St. Mary’s and to enjoy Mother’s Day brunch with Beth.

And it turned out a road trip was on the travel agenda.

This afternoon we journeyed to Camp Allen, a hotel and conference center serving the Episcopal Diocese of Texas. It’s also a summer camp. My sons attended camp here as youngsters. It’s where they learned to sleep away from home. Good spiritual and independence formation.

When one gets beyond urban borders, East Texas has a special kind of beauty. Big, open countryside.

Reminds me of the Indigo Girls’ song Wide Open Spaces. “She needs wide open spaces, Room to make her big mistakes….”

I relished every twist and turn in the road, every field we passed.

After we arrived, I relished indoor spaces. This place and space is gorgeous, decorated with wood from the East Texas Piney Woods and with windows showcasing the views outside.

Tonight we were present for The Service of Evening Prayer.

“Now as we come to the setting of the sun, and our eyes behold the vesper light, we sing your praises….”.

Beth is here to teach students attending The Iona School for Ministry. This is a program of the diocese that provides training for those called to the bi-vocational priesthood or the diaconate.

Worship was led by one of the students and included a lovely homily. These words gave me pause: “We cannot love an invisible God if we don’t love our neighbors who are visible.”

Following the service I walked the labyrinth. As I twisted an turned on my way to the center and back, I heard the closing hymn playing in my ears and on my heart. “Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you, allelu, alleluia.”

While Beth teaches, I blog. Surrounded by so much beauty.

Alleluia indeed.

Here’s the bonus. I met one of the diaconate students. Turns out she is is Southwest Airlines pilot. And actually is the one who hired my pilot son some 15 years ago. Small world.

We drive home tonight, and return tomorrow afternoon. Road trippin’ in East Texas.

Traveling mercies.

shades of springtime

My brother gave me this wind chime over a decade ago. He had come for a visit and believed these pieces of sea glass would hang beautifully on my screen porch. He was right.

Last night, as I enjoyed dinner on the porch, Evan pointed out the glass strips hanging behind me were shimmering as the sun’s last rays of the day were streaming through them. What a beautiful image.

I realized that these are shades of spring I see around me these first days of May.

I have irises blooming alongside my driveway in shades similar to the glass.

“Every flower is a soul blossoming in nature.” Gerard de Nerval

“Flowers appear on the earth; the season of singing has come.” Song of Songs 2:12.

Yesterday as I drove into a big box store parking lot, I gazed upward as I got out of my car.

“I look to the hills! Where will I find help? It will come from the Lord, who created the heavens and the earth.” This day in shades of spring.

I helped bury a friend today. An artist of textiles, her work hung in the church, surrounding us with the beauty she created, and now leaves in others’ care. Shades of spring. Shades of new life.

Serving as crucifer, I stood just inches from the freshly dug earth where her ashes were poured from a clay pitcher. Whoosh. Gone to new life. Shades of spring. Shades of everlasting life.

spring

The calendar says it’s Spring.

The 71 degrees outside at noon says maybe. The expected temperature of 43 degrees tonight says not yet.

Still, I can’t help but see spring no matter which direction I look.

Driving to my home…

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or driving from my home….

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or driving to town….

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or taking a walk along a path through my woods….

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and having a sit on a bench my grandchildren help build years ago.

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Spring has its own shades of green and I absolutely love this look.

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“Instructions for living a life
Pay attention.
Be astonished.
Tell about it.”    Mary Oliver

I love, too, the promises of spring;

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“River starts with a drop of rain somewhere in this world
Light years shape this arc of sky and sand, a precious pearl and
You will light a stranger’s life by letting yours unfurled
On and on it goes……
On and on it flies on a new bird’s wing
In a beating heart, the moon light rolls and the gift of spring.”
Mary Chapin Carpenter
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“Hard to imagine daffodils
Where I see nothing but white veils
Incessant falling of this snow
In this nowhere, non-landscape
Which has no shadow and no shape,
And holds me fast and holds me deep
And will not cease before I sleep.
Hard to imagine somewhere else
Where life could stir and has a pulse,
And know that somewhere else will be
This very field, changed utterly,
With hosts of daffodils to show
That spring was there under the snow.”         May Sarton
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“Spring is humming
Bits of something
A melody the simple part
A song that I once knew by heart
Juniper, wild indigo
Foxglove, lupine, Queen Ann’s lace
Will be coming any day
The restlessness
The quickening
The almost but
Not yet.”     Carrie Newcomer

 

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“The violets in the mountain have broken the rocks”. Tennessee Williams.

 

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What in your life is calling you,
When all the noise is silenced,
The meetings adjourned…
The lists laid aside,
And the Wild Iris blooms
By itself
In the dark forest…
What still pulls on your soul?”      Rumi

All this to say I have declared Spring has sprung, and my soul is leaping for joy.  I’m watching the greening of the woods crawl up from the valley, with only about a 100 feet left to reach my home.

“Fair are the meadows, Fairer sill the woodlands,
Robed in the blooming garb of spring;
Jesus is fairer, Jesus is purer, Who makes the woeful heart to sing.”    Fairest Lord Jesus

it is finished

My most intentional Lenten discipline was to make crosses. I used found objects, most of which were natural materials. As I journeyed through Lent I found I was always watching for objects to use in my cross-making, and I found, too, that I looked forward to the times when I would “slip into” my crafting time with God. It was a good thing.

While I did not set out to make one a day for 40 days, in the end I did make just that- 40 crosses.

Here are most of them.

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One of the suggestions of what to do with the crosses was made by the author of the book that served as my inspiration to enter into this Lenten practice.  One suggestion was to bury the crosses. I was really attracted to that idea, especially when an image was painted for me of burial and resurrection. The crosses would be buried, yes, but there was the possibility that some of the seed pods I had used to adorn the crosses might actually sprout.

WOW, I thought.

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Thinking about an upcoming visit from a grandson, I thought he might help me bury the crosses.  After he arrived, and I explained what I was thinking, he suggested that we place the crosses “in” some of the foliage surrounding my home. That way the crosses would still return to the earth, but it would be possible to see them for as long as they remained in or on the branches and leaves, with always the possibility of seeds being dispersed.

Today we set out to return the crosses.

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Just beyond the swing is a bank of rhododendrons. You’ll see – sort of – the crosses scattered there.

From the woods, mostly; now returned.

 

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mis-information in the information age

In this age of having information available at one’s fingertips, how does that old saying equate today? Yes, it’s an old saying. Yet, it is true today. Originally it referred to something being physically within one’s reach or in one’s hand.

These days the perspective could be seen as having one’s fingertips on any number of devices, where information is easily accessed.

I have information on my mind because today was filled with a mixture of truth and fiction, all delivered as if it was correct. All delivered in a manner of authority.

This mixture of fact and fiction took place in the Atlanta airport.

Evan and were at the airport to pick up our grandson who was traveling solo for the first time. All the way from Seattle. It was important to be at the gate on time.

Information I had been given a few days ago about traversing security without actually traveling, turned out to be inaccurate. Then began a marathon of steps and inquisition. A mixture of true and false facts sent us crisscrossing terminals, ticket counters, security lines, both expedited and slogged.

I marveled at how opposing facts were given in response to questions.

I had information overload right at my fingertip, that’s for certain. All “sold” as an umpire sells a call.

We had 2 1/2 hours to navigate to the gate where our grandson would deplane. We made it with no more than 5 minutes to spare.

Information at my fingertips. Mis-information at my fingertips as well. Most importantly, my grandson arrived safe and sound and now sleeps soundly just upstairs.

cross making concluded

My Lenten practice of making crosses almost daily, turned out to be such a meaningful activity for me. By the end of Lent I had created 40 crosses.

Here are the last of the crosses.

White branches with yarn and seaweed from Iceland.

Found wood scraps with cluster seed pod.

This year’s palm cross affixed to last year’s palm cross, with colored stone.

Lemongrass stalks weathered over the winter. The largest of all the crosses, it measures 28″ in length.

The Finale. Found scraps of color, to create my version of an Easter flowering cross.

And one more created today. In honor of Jack’s verger installation, a cross made with Starbucks Easter Cards.

This intentional time of creating crosses with mostly found materials, while inviting God to be present, has gone far to give me a Holy Lent. And today a joyous Easter.

verger time

I journeyed to Texas this weekend to be present for my grandson Jack’s installation as a verger.

A verger, is a person, usually a layperson, who assists in the ordering of religious services, particularly in Episcopal and Anglican churches. Vergers assist the clergy and lay servers in the conduct of public worship.

Although the history of verging goes back over 700 years, this ministry of service and welcome of the Episcopal Church is thriving in the twenty-first century.

Last night, during the Easter Vigil, Jack was installed as a verger in his parish,

The service began outside with the lighting of the new Easter fire.

The installation was just before the passing of the Peace.

It was awesome. It was a joy and an honor to be a presenter and to witness this solemn and affirming moment in his life.

Following the service, the rector invited Jack to stand with him and greet parishioners as they walked out of the church.

Then it was time for family photos,

And dueling vergers.

This morning at the Easter Sunday service, Jack served as Verger. I was front and center, barely able to contain my pride in and my joy for Jack!

I feel like I’ve had an Easter banquet even before we prepare and enjoy our dinner later today. I give thanks!

here I go again

Yep, I’m back in a chair in the sky. I think this may set a record. Three flights in one month. Actually, three flights in twenty days. I’m fast closing in on 400 flights in the years since I got back into riding chairs in the sky.

I’m headed to Keller, Texas, for a special event in my grandson’s life. He’s to be installed as a verger during the Easter Vigil in his church, St. Martin in the Fields, Saturday night. I could not miss this!

Those who know me, know I like to be on time. Actually I prefer to be early. I plan my departure times carefully, always building in extra time for the “in cases”.

When flying out of Hartsfield-Jackson I allow 3 hours drive time in order to arrive 2 hours before my flight. Often it takes close to 3 hours drive time.

So imagine my shock this morning when I realized my flight was departing at 11am, NOT noon. Uh oh. How could this happen? No time to figure it out. I left immediately, 45 minutes behind schedule. To a certain extent I was calm, well, calmish. Thankfully it was early morning on a Saturday. Evan reported that a WAZE check indicated it would be clear driving to ATL.

A quick stop for gas, but no stop for Starbucks!

An absolutely huge and glowing moon led the way, and even provided some distraction from concern. I resisted the urge to pull over to photograph. In lieu of a photo, here’s the scoop.

So as to avoid the suspense, I will say I made it to the airport over 2 hours early. Whew! And then my flight’s departure was delayed an hour. Best laid plans, – or not.

So I had an interesting conversation with a gate agent. Delta, as all airlines are doing, is increasingly automating all things flight related. Today I would scan my boarding pass on my phone and gates would swing open. Like at a concert or a sporting event.

Coming soon will be a thumb print scanner. She mentioned all this will further reduce the need for gate agents.

I mentioned how I go through Clear Screening where my eyes are scanned and then my security check is expedited.

Then she told me about the time she was working the International Terminal, where facial scanners are used for boarding. A woman was having problems with the scanner not recognizing her face. It had worked previously. Reluctantly she mentioned having had some “work done”. She was no longer recognized. A real bummer. I guess she will need to be re-recognized.

We all reinvent ourselves as we make our journey through life, but this example gives new meaning to putting forth a new face.

For now I’m in my air-chair headed to Texas to take my place in the front pew as my grandson becomes a verger. I’m a very proud Nana.

Traveling mercies.